Je m'ennuie de mon passé.

feliz cumpleaños, querido

I still remember,

the very first time when I saw you.

It was in our medical faculty,

you and your great smile, were standing in front of that building.

Two months later,

I recognize you as the one with the great smile,

again, in our faculty, with me as the new medical student,

and you, the 2-years-older-than-me medical student.

Two and half years later,

It just happened.

We met again in our university hospital.

I smiled at you,

and you smiled back at me.

And then love has just found its own way.

A month later you asked me that question,

and I answered,

Yes.

Still,

It's like a dream for me.

You and your great smile.

I've just never ever imagine about this before.

But it happened.

It did happened.

That's why I want to thank God for.

For letting us met each other.

For the fact that you're having me right now.

For the fact that I'm yours.

That I'm having you too.

For every little time that we've spent together,

all the time when we laugh, we smile, we make a new journey everyday.

I love your smile.

Your joke, your effort to make me laugh everyday.

Your love to your parents, siblings, nephew, and your big family.

Your dream to continue your medical study in Germany.

Your passion to the children.

Your kindness.

Your patience.

Everything about you.

Everything.

Thanks for being the one who always be there for me,

for being the one who never feel bored to make me laugh,

for being the one who make me feel comfort,

for being the one who make me feel free to be just the way I am,

for making me believe and falling in love again.

for being the right one, in the right time, and the right place.

happy 22th birthday my dear blue ranger..

I love you,

I truly do.

because of you.

If ever you wondered
If you touched my soul
Yes you do

Since I met you I'm not the same
You bring life to everything I do

Just the way you say hello
With one touch I can't let go
Never thought I'd fall in love with you

Because of you my life has changed
Thank you for the love and the joy you bring
Because of you I feel no shame
I'll tell the world it's because of you

Sometimes I get lonely
And all I gotta do is think of you
You captured something inside of me
You make all of my dreams come true

It's not enough that you love me for me
You reached inside and touched me internally
I love you best explains how I feel for you

Because of you my life has changed
Thank you for the love and the joy you bring
Because of you I feel no shame
I'll tell the world it's because of you

The magic in your eyes
True love I can't deny
When you hold me
I just lose control

I want you to know
That I'm never letting go
You mean so much to me
I want the world to see
It's because of you

Because of you my life has changed
Thank you for the love and the joy you bring
Because of you I feel no shame
I'll tell the world it's because of you

My life has changed
Thank you for the love and the joy you bring
Because of you I feel no shame
I'll tell the world it's because of you..

thank you :)

a great beginning of a new year

hello there!

whiiii~

rasanya udah lama banget ga ngepost,

udah ampir 2 bulanan kali yak,

padahal di awal tahun ini banyak banget cerita seru yang pengen gue share.

pertama, umm..

tentang apa dulu ya?

okay, tentang diri gue sendiri dulu.

I umm.. I'm not single anymore.

I've finally found someone, the right one, to begin our journey together.

he's also a medical student. kakak kelas gue.

but he's already graduated as S.ked and now he's busy doing his job as the doctor co-assistant at our university hospital, RSMH everyday.

he's very nice. really.

I can always be myself, the real me, just the way I am, when he's beside me.

that's why I said yes when he asked me that question. he also love his family so much and very close to them, that's why I love him. and also one of the reason is that because from the beginning he always introduce me to his great family and he want me to get close to them too.

that's very nice according to me.

so since february 1st, we've been together and until now I thank God for every single time that we've spent together.

you know what, he's really busy everyday. I mean really 'busy', bukannya sok sibuk atau disibuk-sibukin. dia harus jaga di RS dan ngurusin pasien setiap hari dari pagi sampe sore, kadang-kadang sampe besok sorenya lagi. tapi dia selalu nyempetin ngasih kabar, nelpon walo secapek apapun dia, bikin gue senyum dan ketawa tiap hari, dan ngajak gue buat lebih deket sama keluarganya. dia juga ga pernah ngeluh walo sesibuk dan secapek apapun dia pas lagi tugas dan sampai saat ini, dia ga pernah marah atau kesel ataupun bikin gue marah atau kesel.

he's a very nice guy.

and I thank God for having him :)

and...

akhirnya Blok Psikiatri alias Blok Ilmu Kedokteran Jiwa berlalu sudah.

gue sukaaaa banget sama blok ini karena gue emang suka belajar ilmu jiwa.

di samping itu semua dosennya (yang merupakan psikiater dan psikolog) ngajarnya bener-bener jempolan. ditambah skill lab di RSJ Erial Bahar yang ga akan pernah gue lupain seumur hidup gue, plus jadwalnya yang santai yang bikin gue bisa hibernasi setiap hari, hehehe.

ujiannya juga baru aja berlalu dan alhamdulillah, lagi-lagi gue dikasih kemudahan dan kelancaran oleh Allah SWT. ujian MCQ dapet case Demensia Vaskuler, mcq berjalan lancar (SEMUA slide kuliah dengan sukses gue baca dan pelajari dengan sepenuh hati, hehehe), terakhir ujian osce dapet case ADHD(Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder) dan ketiganya insya Allah prognosisnya BONAM. insya Allah, aamiin..

terus ada hal lucu juga yang sempet terjadi, si pacar, yang kebetulan lagi di stase neuro, jadi probandus di ujian osce untuk case MCI (Mild Cognitive Impairment)! alhamdulillah banget gue ga dapet jatah case itu karena kalo ga gue ga tau bakal gimana pas harus ngelakuin pemeriksaan neurologis ke pasien yang notabene pacar sendiri! that should be very weird and awkward, hahaha.

lantas update terakhir, soal resolusi vegetarian gue.

gue dengan cukup sukses belajar jadi vegetarian 2 bulan ini,

belom nyampe real vegan sih, masih ovolacto sekaligus pescovegetarian, hehehe,

tapi lumayan, ternyata belajar jadi vegetarian ga sesulit dan semenderita yang gue bayangin :)

okay, I think that's enough for a quick update about me.

still has 10 months left to make this 2010 year a great and unforgettable year,

bismillah..

wish you'll have a great 2010 too! :)

I'm so sorry

I know it's hurt you my dear friend,

The fact that now I'm belong to him,

is hurt you a lot,

I know it.

But this is my life.

I can't wait for something unreal.

I just can't.

I accept your disappointment,

it's your right and it's your own life.

You have the right to decide who's the one who deserve to be your friend.

And the fact that I don't deserve to be your friend anymore because of my relationship with him is not gonna make me sad.

I promise you I won't be sad.

Because I know that you don't want me to be sad.

I'll never forget about all the great time that we have when we share with each other,

I'll never forget about your stories, your advices.

Instead all of the things that've already happened to us,

You're still my friend.

One of the kindest.

Take care, brother.

0102.2010

boy : would you be my girlfriend?

girl : why must me?

boy : because... I like you.

girl : umm... I like you too.

february 1st, 2010. we're officially together :)